pppppffffftttttttttttttt!!!!!

My friends have been updating their blogs recently and i know i have been missing out on alot already this one i cant miss!!!!! hmph! As you can see, my title: pppppfffftttttt!!!! Its like screaming "IM DEPRESSED!"

Anyways, hahah just read ash's blog and ha! the way she describes me eveytime though lame but damn funny lor this gadget moron... tsk! Read jie's blog too... kinda sad cos they enjoyed so much more in taiwan this time and its without me... sigh.....
..........(silent for 5 min)




ok, now you know why my title is............. ha!

But it doesnt mean that im sad la.. sad in a way but happy in another way le, i have been spending quality time with my family. As in my own family :) even though its tiring and time consuming, but overall im happy to be able to spend time like that with... hahahah you know who....

yawn.... im really tired and there isnt really much to talk about in life actually. Everyone is disappointing me one way or the other. Like leon, he is driving me crazy! its like hello? am i not crazy enough??? I am utterly speechless about this brother of mine. He needs to grow up and i have no means to guide him any longer.. he loves to test my patience.. or is it that i have spoilt him too much and allowed all these nonsense that he created to happen like as though its supposed to be this way?.

Mum is driving me nuts too. Suddenly everything is my responsibility. Any brothers of mine gets into trouble, bham! its my fault. Not that im petty or what but, hello???? how is it my business???!!!!!! All day and all night im at home, why cant people seem to understand that times are different now? why cant people understand that im very busy and i have no time to run errands nor do things for you as efficiently as last time?? So please try to understand!!! not telling me how many kids you have had and act like you know everything! when you didnt even take care of your own child when they were young!!!!!!!!!! To put it bluntly, i know more than you!

yappie is killing me softly with his stupidity. As simple as that.

Friends! friends.... sigh....... do i still have friends?? i wonder.... i have a responsibilty now its very natural that i wont have much time and its common that you suddenly realise, yeah im being left out horribly.......... But these feelings, friends will never understand. hm.........


hahahaha so here i am on god's good humour.

But i wish my path will be smoother in 2010. I love you z. I will always be here for you :)

muacks!

new present!! or is it?

Mr Yap newest gift to me!!! (hm... no la not newest la but 2 weeks ago one..haha) Hello kitty candy box!! hahahaha well this may seem lame but it is sweet la..

Everynight before sleeping i would cough like nobody's business and i would sound like an old chimney.. ha, so mr yap went to buy me sweets to keep my throat feeling moisturised! ok.... should i even use that word? hm.... Anyways the sweeet sucks la cos it's strepsils.. so bitter.. not sweet at all but it stopped my cough altogether and now when i talk i dont sound like the stoopid chimney liao.. Infact he got his like 2 weeks ago? But i am so busy.. so now then i put it up hahahaha!!!!

Will update the newest gift he gave me!! stay tuned!!

what are you?

I asked,

What am i?


You said,

You are the rainbow.


You asked,

What about me?


I said you are the star.


I asked,

Why am i the rainbow?


You said,

Because rainbows are beautiful and colourful.


You asked,

Why am i the star?


I said,

Because no matter what the weather is like, you will still be up in the sky every single night, shining brightly down from the sky. At the same time, same place. Never leaving.



Now i want to ask,

Do you remember how much i love the stars above in the sky?


What will be your answer?

someday i'll fly away..

I wanna fly away...

But who will take me?


Let the wind, the rain, the waves and time destroy the fact of my existence.

For i do not need remembrance.



Anything for a life where no one remembers me.....

surprise of the week.

Mr Yap went to JB to get some things done and promised to come back with a suprise, and he came back with this whale. Haha. When i first saw it i was thinking hm, its a whale. ok... since when was i acquainted with whales?

So after asking him for an answer to why a whale, he told me becos he really couldnt find anything for me. Ha! So first thing i asked him straightaway, "so.... where am i gonna hang this thing?" It seems i really have alot alot of mobile phone accessories like this and i only have 1 mobile. whatsmore all of these are from prople that i love dearly like friends and hubby but i cant finish using them all. And if i dont use it, people will take it that i dont like the present they got me. But the thing is, my mobile cant fit so many... hahaha. *headache*

In the end, i still like it la hahah it glows in the dark actually and its so round like a fish ball! its cute la! anyways, thank you darlin'!

muacks!

strawberries!!! who wants some strawberries???

i love strawberries!!! look at these strawberries!!! so beautiful and sweet!! and they taste "YUM"!

Hubby bought me these strawberries and though i've always dreamt of having the "plastic" looking ones that costs 50bucks flown all the way from Japan, these were enough to stop thinking of that! haha call me 三八 but this is defintely being "easily contented". LOL! Justt look at the colors!!! Its enough to make everyone drool! i mean at least thats how i think la haha :)

okok im gonna enjoy my strawberries now!! adios! *drools*

可以不爱了

让窗户通通都打开 让阳光通通都照进来
让风放肆的吹伞我身上的尘埃
把你的过去变腐坏 把你的溺爱藏起来
把你的所有都搬到我房间以外

现在是三点钟 你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线 会不会打扰你呢
梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配合 你习惯短暂的温热

我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人 来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己 有一个善良的交代
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得

现在是三点钟 你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线 会不会打扰你呢
梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配合 你习惯短暂的温热

我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人 来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己 有一个善良的交代
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得

离开你欲走还留的眼睛
我要我忍住在一次抱你
躲开你转身以後的消息
这一次我可以

我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
你可以不爱了 别说舍不得

sometimes romance can be cheap :) cheap cheap!!!

Another one of the sweet suprise hubby got me.. haha.

I always complain to him that i never got the chance to get proposed to.. haiz... haha well he didnt know how to initially but think his puny brain finally thought of something and he decided he will act to propose. ha! Got this nice heart shaped box from a nearby shop around his work place and he made it more special than it seems.. hand wriiten notes on the top of the opening with a picture we took a long time ago and made a ring out of paper (actually its a dollar note) and he proposed at 12 midnight! Though it seems silly but i dont know why it was a great feeling. And i have to admit that silly things do touch people's heart..

like how it touched mine.

Women are silly creatures huh? like that also can be happy.. ha!

Im in love!!!!

a box of chocolates anyone?

a little something



Well, chocolates are a very significant "thing". People give chocolates as presents that represents so many different thoughts, emotions, meanings.

I was really upset or shall i say i have been upset for quite some time. Hubby came back home and gave me this box of chocolates saying "when you feel upset or down just take one and it will sweeten you up". hoping to finally be able to make me smile, i smiled and said "thank you, its sweet".

i liked it really. i liked it so much that i dont want to eat it. but i guess eventually it will have to be eaten. either by me or the ants in my house haha.

I remembered there was one christmas, i gave away alot alot of chocolates cos i really couldnt think of what to give away to my fellow colleagues and then i realised its really the most convenient gift. It looks good, tastes nice and its affordable! haha

Now talking about it makes me start drooling.. hm... im gonna have a chocolate, do you want some? ;p

asking for too much?

I used to be ignorant in life. Not that i amm not now i still am, but the problem is smaller. There are so many things in life that i have yet to find out and yet to learn. And i crave for these knowledges.. i crave to find out the many many things in life.

I thought every human being would think the same, but i realised, nope. Not many people think this way. I met a couple of people lately and all they ever care is themselves, their own life, or worse some just live blindly!! Honestly speaking im really shocked. Because at the end of the day what will these people get? Nothing. They can get all the material stuffs they lay their hands on, but they will never gain an extra bit of knowledge on what is really happening everyday. People like these would have lived their life aimlessly. Even though they had the best branded goods, best food, best accomodation, in truth hey have nothing. Thus these people are usually never happy.

Being able to gain material items is a pleasure i agree. However, if gaining all these things and yet living without a reason other than this is such a shame really. Dont they ever thought of wanting to know more? Dont anyone out there want to know what is it that they are living for? Everyone knows the quote "Live life to the fullest!" But honestly is anyone doing that???

As a human myself, i feel so ashamed.

Though i really dont know how to express whatever emotions im having now towards my friends and people around me that has these ignorant thinking and being selfish seem to be the only thing they are now, i just wanna pen down whatver that is in my mind now to vent my frustrations out.

I am not someone who can change another's thinking and i do not have the right to teach another how to live their life, but i just hope i can be able to do something to help my loved ones....

surprise!!!! surprise!!!!!

I woke up this morning and found this on my table!!! hahaha so happy!!!! Hubby left it on my table together with a note saying that he loves me.... awe... so sweet right??? hahahah i was so happy!! anyways i bet its because of my constant complain that he has changed and not so romantic anymore.... hahahah

You know sometimes its just a feeling that you are not so important anymore or he is just not so into you..... but then again, tadah!!! you get surprised just like that in a snap! but .... actually yesterday i was really sad too... i dropped my phone and my kingyo's tail actually chipped off.... i was so upset... it was a gift fom my hubby... he look disappointed too when i told him yesterday in regards to my little kingyo..... sigh...

Anyways i took out the kingyos and i hope nothing would happen to them again...tsk tsk tsk....

Im a happy person today!!!! muacks!!!!

Er yee's birthday!!!!! Happy birthday!!!!

The birthday cake that Leon got



14th Sept! Er yee's birthday and it was her 60th!! old right??? sigh... er yee... she had been like a mother to me, Leon and Noel. All 3 of us were brought up by her le.. hahah and whatever we had owed her this life, we will never be able to repay her. So this year her birthday, the 3 of us got her presents, cake and happiness!

She had never celebrated her birthday before and everyone would tend to forget this day.. sometimes, she will forget it herself! hahaha funny but true. Since it was her 60th, my bros and i decided we will celebrate for her and make it special. She made a wish and blew out the candle. :) It was a wonderful feeling and she loved everything! She appreciated what we all done for her.

All her life, she had dedicated herself to the family. Never got a chance to make friends herself, never got the chance and time to date thus she never got married and she dont have kids. Except us. We are her "children" . The things that she had done for us and the things that we have done or ever did to her..tsk tsk tsk you will never believe how come she still loves us so much! Even i dont understand it myself! hahaha and till now, she still keep the copies of ugly "mother's day" cards that we made for her when we were in nursery! Also our report cards since kindergarten!! Er yee has it all..

She never had anything good for herself. She saved everything good for us. Till now. Just the other day, i went shopping with her and when she opened her wallet to take out the money that she want to use, i saw the picture of me, Leon and Noel in the photo compartment! i was surprised and shock.It left me speechless.

We are "her children". All 3 of us never got this kind of treatment before, its the sweetest feeling..

i love er yee..... muacks!

just waiting...

im counting down ten weeks already!! hahaha or even less than that lor.. anyways, im excited!

i spent these few days either at home or meeting my mum but i have a feeling that i may have to stop stepping out of my house already cos its really uncomfortable to walk around nowadays... sigh.. my doctor says nothing about me other than being fat.. so upsetting..so now many may not believe but im on a diet! im only eating non fat yogurt and saltless high fibred wheat biscuits when im hungry and if my mouth just wants to bite something im having seaweed! the nicest fatless snack you can ever find on earth! well, if you really want me to stop putting things in my mouth,can...unless i have a ciggie la! its either smoking or eating. thats my life. But do you know that i can eat much much more last time?? and i dont gain ay weight!! really the miracle of ciggies.... cant wait for 10 weeks to pass faster! and i will embrace my new life...

im happy!!!!!!!! *faints*

men, women and money

DO you ever realise the one common quarrel between husbands and wives that sometimes can be so serious that "divorce" is the only solution to it?? Well, i have witnessed a couple of close friends, family members and experiencing it personally currently, Money.

Let me start with my parents. Mum have always been the one earning to let me have whatever i want, and to be honest i have never seen my father bringing "bread" home to feed the family. Mum never complained, mum never minded doing what she can for her family. But when one day dad was supposed to do some payments for the household, it was almost like killing him!
I didnt understand it until it was my turn.
When i was earning, everything spent was worth it. Everything bought was with taste and a neccesity. Every trip overseas were romantic. No complains were ever made. I could buy whatever i wanted for my brothers, aunt and families and friends. Life was perfect and happy between us, until i lost my job and i stopped working. Things changed. Now money spent is slashing flesh off my partner. It hurts him to spend on me like how i spend on him! Its a waste of money to go on trips, everything is bought as irrelevant. Everything spent is nonsense. Complaints are never ending stories..... Etc. It made me think back on my life. I think this is not the life that i want, i dont deServe such treatments from my partner who has taken his fair share of my happiness when i was earning back then and now im not entitled to have my share on his. And whats worse? He thinks he doesnt have any problem with his attitude!

Recently, my friend is facing the same problem with her husband, and things are worse. But the root of the problem is the same.

It sets me thinking, what can i do to solve this problem altogether? Im still thinking now and im sure once i get the formula, i will have a solution.

women= always generous with their men. Always generous with their families. Always generous in life. But forever stingy with themselves.

Men= always stingy with women, always stingy with families. always stingy in life. But forever generous with themselves.

its another week

Neoprints!!

another week has gone!!!! woohoo! hahah

Well, i have spent my week out with either my mum or my friend.. nothing really special but i cant wait for time to pass faster! hhahahaha

Went to Kinokuniya the other day and got myself a new book and i finished it within 2 days. The name of the book "Bones" .

Apparently this book is about a serial killer and he is a psycho.. haha ok, i know i shouldnt be reading psycho books now but wow its a thriller. hahaha oh!!

know what? i went to malaysia the other day and my hubby decided that the both of us should get a neoprint taken hahaha so lame right? but i went along anyway. He was a stone.... hahaha taking neoprints would mean that you have to take candid shots ma... so all mine were candid but yep manson took it well and played along haha. Sometimes its really fun just hanging out with him la!

I havent had so much fun in a long time........!!!!!! Among all the different pics up there i feel i like the green background one most!! its the sweetest!! LOL

快乐？不快乐？

快乐与不快乐的定义是什麽？



为什麽现在越来越多人要寻找快乐？
无论是学生或已踏入社会的人士，
难道是说现在的人与社会不管已经踏入21世纪了但却发现快乐难求？



到低人生应该为什麽而快乐？ 应该为什麽而不快乐呢？
而真正快乐的感觉是什麽呢？


我觉的没有人知道。


人的欲望是无限的，根本永远都不会满足。
那“知足尝乐” 是谁发明的呢？


知足就会尝到快乐吗？ 真的是这样吗？



我何时才会知足呢？

welcome to the world baby sophia!!

welcome to the world you miracle

My bestie had just given birth and i just wanna say that im so proud of her.... Dont be mistaken the above picture is not her baby, but its a picture of a very cute infant hence i just put it up lor, i havent see how bably sophia look like yet so... hahaha but ash mentioned she has got daddy's nose and ash's eyes... awe aint that cute????

It felt like it was only last week i received a call from my bestie and she was telling me in a calm tone "im in my first trimester." hahahaha!!! At that very moment, i felt i had butterflies in my tummy and im so excited that i could throw up anytime!! She laughed at my reaction thinking i was crazy haha. But seriously i never expected her to be a mummy so fast hahaha!!! but then again, she officially went into the auntie league liao.

Time passed really fast. i was so uptight about it that i didnt encourage her to go out and made calls to her everytime asking her "where are you? " and when she replies that she is out i would start nagging.. haha so because i didnt know how to face it, i decided that i shouldnt know anything and hopefully like in all movies time pass like nobodies business and maybe before i know it she give birth already hahah.

But When she was in her 6th month, my turn came! She came over to my place and visit me, it was so nice.. then we went out to bitch about everything under the sun and talk like there's no tomorrow, basically all on pregnancy and childbirth . hahah well this is the auntie league so.... anyways then when i finally see her again, she is in her 36th week gonna give birth any time liao! man she was huge!! i meant her tummy la.. apparently baby sophia is really long.... hahahaha what a way to describe. so more space were needed for her model like legs. Hence my friend's tummy was like a balloon.. or should i say she looked pracically like a hot air balloon? hahaha!!! cute little preggy woman!!

Yesterday i called her and her husband picked up the phone saying she is in great pain and sorry aint able to talk to me, immediately i say its ok and after outting down the phone, i waited patiently but called my hubby to tell him it might be anytime soon because she is in pain already... then waited till this morning, my phone rang...sms... before i saw the sms i was so pissed off, it was like "wtf? its so early!! im gonna screw this person alive" then it stated ash and i rubbed my eyes to read the rest of the sms.. haha she gave birth already smoothly..!!!!

i must say i was so happy i woke up and never did continue my sleep haiz....After talking talking to her and knowing everything is fine, i want to make this day a day i will never forget so, tadah! i put it in my blog!!!!!!! hahaha so happy...

yawnz.... i think im going to sleep and dream of my turn to come.... woo!! so exciting!!! Am going to patiently wait for my turn to be like in the movie hoping the time would pass like nobodies business hahahhahaha

Baby sophia was born this morning at 6.35 +- am to Mr and Mrs Lau... Congrats my bestie...

Inconsiderate Singaporeans

Q: what do people from other countries have describes singaporeans as?

A: 有教育没教养。(basically it means sporeans have education but not "civilised". eg, no manners, proud, arrogant...etc)

hahaha how ironic, im a true blue sporean and i think so too! totally agreeing!!!!!

One very good example of typical disgrace:-

"giving up the seat to someone who needs it more than you do" (together with pictures stating pregnant women, old people, the disabled...etc)

Why do i say this? well you can say its a personal experience. I was in a MRT and was going to orchard for a walk, as you can see im pregnant. haha And anybody with eyes can see that my belly is popping out. It was after working hours time and as usual the crowd is there, so like any other people, i just stepped right in and took the train like others. Not trying to prove that im pregnant or what and defintely not looking at anyone with my bambi eyes trying to get them to offer me their seats, however, these people they look at you immediately pretend to be sleeping!! hahah i was shocked at all these behaviour! At least i wasnt like that last time! When ashley told me she had that experience loads of times i didnt thought of it serious then when i finally experienced it personally..... i couldnt be more disgusted with these ugly sporeans.

Outdoor seats but with a no smoking sign :-

i went to Mos Burger at a shopping center and the indoor seats were all taken upand whats left are the outdoor seats hence no choice me and manson went to take the outdoor seats. Because there were no smoking signs around the area and so we figured it was alright then the smell came... public smokers. They just couldnt be bothered with the signs, stood there and start puffing away! can you believe it? Its like hello??? there are kids and pregnant women out here eating? CANT YOU SEE? i was a smoker myself once and i always make initiative to move away from kids and pregnant women but how it it there are people out there who cant be bothered? And they are mojority men. MEN!!! If its your kids and wife out there, would you smoke in their faces???? how can people be so inconsiderate??

And to all the inconsiderate smokers in the world, i on behalf of all the pregnant women and children wanna say : "IF WE WANTED TO SMELL YOUR SMOKE, WE WOULD RATHER SMOKE OURSELVES BETTER THAN BEING 2ND HAND SMOKERS THAT CREATES MORE HARM TO OUR BODIES!!!!"

my happy life..

Our matching tattoos....

my favourite kingyos

traces of our footsteps... taking the first steps towards the future

Manson and i did a matching tattoo together, basically you guys may think that im stupid to do matching tattoos but i thought it was nice, and we made it more of individuality hence if we ever break up whatsoever, it will still look special. Then he went to have another one tattooed on his back, a picture of 2 goldfishes. He knows that i love goldfishes and so he did one. representing me and him together.. silly but sweet.

You know how sometimes things can be so funny. You will never know what happiness is until you have lived through it, seen through it and cried through it. I never thought that i would find happiness living with another person one day, but i did. And guess what? i just realised it a few days ago...

I have been listening to friends complaining about their other halves and i have been through heartless relationships as well. And along the way, i have learnt so much so much. Now that im all grown up, i realised sometimes i look at relationships in a very "reasonable" way. Or should i say im so calm about so many things that its kindda "over" .

i spent the last weekend all day at home basically in my room with my hubby and it was the 1st time we ever spent quality time together like that. We talked like we have endless topics and just chilled out. Its not that we have never had any communication but usually i will be the one talking and he will be the one listening and agreeing to whatever i say, but this time, its different. He actually made an effort to open his mind and talked with me. i must say im so proud of him. haha proud because he always had a problem with words and we can never talk properly because sometimes i cant express myself in mandarin properly and he doesnt much understand when i speak english... okok i admit we have a communication breakdown also due to languages...

But i must say after spending the last 2 days just with him and just at home, i realised so many things that i should have known 1 year ago.

I realised how many things he had lost because of wanting us to be together, giving me whatever i want and need. And yet all these while i had never spared any thought for him and taking it all for granted. He put up with all my nonsense for so long and yet i was never grateful. constantly ignoring him, neglecting his feelings and scolding him for his naive stupidity. i was such a terrible terrible person!!! Amd he never once did talk back nor scream back in my face. Not once. i realised, how many men out there can do all these things just because they love their wives? Hahaha for my case i know only 1 and that 1 is my husband... hahahah how funny.

Guess what i did after all these thoughts? hahah i wrote him a letter. A letter with all the wrongs that i have done, and i apologised. He was so happy that he nearly cried. placed the letter nicely in his bag and bring it with him everyday, everywhere he went, for the sake of reading it as and when he like. haha cute.

Just a letter, and he forgave me or can i say he has never blamed me for anything. He blames himself for not able to be what i want him to be... just a letter , everything that i have done to him is basically just love. And he is happy.

What can i say??

j&k + 8

Reality show TV this family.... the Gosselins.

I wonder if many of you actually watch this reality show, but it is really nice. Ok basically this couple who had twins wanted to have another child and thus they went for an op to have another baby. But they ended up with 6 more.

Its not easy to have so many kids and teaching and grooming them as they grow up, getting them to listen together, its harder than climbing mount everest in a day. (haha) But in the show, Kate(wife) did a real good job. I couldnt help but thought to myself that this woman is a real deal. And she is defintely a very good mother to get all her kids to listen to her and not get into a fit for the slightest reasons like many other children does. In other words i look up to her and for a moment she was the best mother i thought might never exist.

After catching a single episode, i got hooked to this reality show because i wanted to learn from her and her kids are all adorable and sweet. Good mannered as well! So i couldnt stop watching. Until i watch the season that she and Jon(husband) were filing for a separation. It all happened so fast... but i was determined to believe that it wasnt easy to have so many kids for a couple to pay attention to. Hence the separation to get more air and space between them. When kids are your priorities, you tend to forget the mutual emotional support and attention for each other as husband and wife. It was a pity, but no choice. All of the fans were sad because of this separation and after 5 years of watching the kids grow up and to face their parent;s divorce only at 5 years of age is not going to be easy.

Then Kate's brother came out and talked all about this reality show. Also reports from the Acedemy of children psychiatry has complaint about the couple in regards to this reality show. Apparently, 8 kids was never easy to begin with hence taking part in this reality show would defintely be able to provide for the family, and bringing all 8 kids to college.

The beggining of the show when the couple was approached, everything was already planned out and paid for. The production had already spoken to the couple and would see to their needs in regards to anything. Hence, all the trips and stuffs were being budget and paid for. The couple with 8 kids could even then afford to each quit their jobs and stay home with the children, do their hair at a salon, go for trips, play golf..etc. Infact the idea of a reality show is to show and teach other couples with sextuplets on how to prioritise their finances and time to their kids as to be good parents. However, this is too fairytale. The Academy actually mentioned in regards to the wrongs of this reality show as it seems the young children are the ones "working" to provide for the family. They had to trade their childhood to be shown to the world on tv to trade for whatever they have now.

As parents, the should be protecting their children and not exploiting them.

There were reports of producers staging the episodes so it may seem the family was having a great time. Many of the so called "traditions in the family" mentioned by kate in lots of episodes were actually fake. They tried to make the whole scene as beautiful and perfect as possible. There was even a scene by an insider stating that Mum was almost getting into a fit by one of the episodes saying " what, you mean now i have to enjoy playing with my kids?"

I mean, what kind of a perfect mummy would say that? im not sure cos even my mum doesnt say that. She just didnt play with me thats all. And another source added there were incidents of mummy punishing the kids by spanking them and they were screaming at the top of their lungs but due to perfect mum on reality tv, all these were not shown on it. So i was thinking just how real is this real-ity tv show? hm......

All the allegations, all kids are mischievious to some point in their lives. However, watching the realiy show, i didnt even think about how did she manage to keep her young children so well mannered and well behaved? so as the saying goes "spare the rod and spoil the child" huh? hahah how ironic.

As for dad, hm.. what can i say about him? loser? Well apparently evidence had shown that infact the couple had already been separated 2 years ago thus the divorce that is coming around the corner would be over faster. So it meant during the previos seasons that they have been looking so lovey dovey were all a show for this so called reality tv? aiyo..... what is this???

Overall, reports were claiming that this is actually mummy's fault because mummy likes to have wealth and fame and is hoping to be able to host a talkshow of her own. so...money grubber... i have nothing to say.

After seeing all those reports and the couple had admitted on the facts, i honestly am very disappointed.. i dont think i will ever watch it again.

Ash, hope you are reading this........ sad sad

me and the witch!!!!!!

the new pregnant me and Guo Liang the fab variety host!

Today i went to a variety show backstage. Saw Guo Liang and lee teng together with pornsak. Pretty friendly and nice people, so easy to talk to! especially guo liang. After a while i found that talking to him feels really good because he is so nice to others! he can talk about anything under the sun. I wanted to post this picture in facebook but i realised i have put on alot of pregnant weight so... hahaha im not ready to show the world how pregnant i am just yet!!! so ha!

Backstage was really fun! everyone was just practically sharing all the gossips that have been happening around, and talking about juicy details and news that is on covers for these few weeks. Then we saw the witch i mentioned above.

When i first saw her, i recognise her to be one of the famous singer from another country. I smiled at her and she smiled back. Well that was a friendly gesture until i decided i want to take pictures with the rest and last picture was her.
I asked the witch, " can i take a picture with you?"
and she replied, "erm, but can you hurry up because im in a hurry and i have things to do."
immediately i asked my friend if she wanted to be in the picture? and my friend said no. Everyone was shocked about the witch's remark.

I decided there and then that im going to put in facebook this picture and tell the whole world what a bad witch she is! PROUD is her first name, EVIL is her middle name and WITCH is her last name.

So my friends there in the backstage all started to laugh and said some nasty things in regards to her comments and in front of her face saying she is so "popular and famous". Well i must say that was a good one.

Then she goes in front of the television and tell the whole of singapore that she is so happy to be here and her purpose of her trip this time is actually too visit us, the singaporeans. But she forgot, do we as singaporeans really know who she is? hm..... i wonder. In a country that speaks ang moh i dont remember her being famous in our country and who cares if she is here or not. Anyways , her main reason i would say is to promote her concert here in singapore duting the period of august i suppose. She sings like her nose is gonna drop any moment!

Her nose looks fake too by the way and god knows maybe she might have fixed her nose before she was famous and the "failed" surgery actually helped her in her singing career if you get what i mean. hahahahahaha

oh my goodness im so mean...... bbut she deserves it. she pissed everyone off.

Ok, think i willl end of here then, am tired..... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..................

nights nights!

Women, what kind of creature do they belong to?

what is the difference of a man and a woman?

All along, man has been the breadwinner of a family. The stronger one in a relationship. Life has always been reallt unfair when ppl compare the lives of a man and a woman. Men always have an upperhand regardless of what.

But women, always a level/ grade lower than men.

However, there are some slight changes now.. women are much more independant and have created a saying “women do not need men to survive and they are well, but men without women surely die!” hahaha this is really a good one.

As per my title, 3 signatures of a woman.

First - Marriage

second - Separation

Third - Divorce

Women have the rights of the three factors in this era.

Most elders with the old conservative thinking would still not agree, but times are changing and each day more and more ppl are accepting this reality. Which personally i feel this is infact very good. Women should finally deserve such rights and respect from men and society.
The society that we are facing now comparing to 40 years ago(not to mention even longer before), civilisation has taken over and human rights are much more obvious. Women nowadays have proven their worth of being much more better than men.

Infact about 3 monnths ago, i personally attended a psychilogy course seminar, and the subjet that particular day happened to be “Genes” . The lecturer was putting in a strong point of a man and a woman. Making a comparison between the 2 species, and he as a male mentioned that women nowadays are independant and the human species infact do not require the male species other than their use of producing the next generation.

He mentioned man currently only have one use in the human world , which is producing sperms. For the next generation and they can start to “wait to die” . hahaha i was very fascinated with the way this lecturer was teaching and totally agreeing with his presentation. (fyi the whole seminar was for both male and female participants )

Women!! Live for yourself! you dont need man to survive! be it sexually or companionship, currently in this society, women have proven that they can satisfy all their needs without the help of men.

haha

my wedding

i got married! hahah well my hubby is not exactly the handsome type, nor the ah beng type. just a honest lad..... too naive though... haha anyways yep i have gone into the 2nd stage of my life and its just the beggining... :) im kindda excited though hahaha

i have put on some weight and my hubby is trying his best to put on as much as he can so that we will look good together! hahaha funny man but you know he is really putting on alot of weight now...

well i have a secret to share.... but i will share it not now but soon.............. stay tuned!

7th june 2009

happy birthday to me...happy birthday to me... happy birthday to me... happy birthday to me.....
yesterday was my 25th brithday and yet i was upset the whole day...... every year is a sad birthday.... you know sometimes i just wonder, why are birthdays celebrated? i mean what is the meaning of birthdays? and who is the person who decided that birthdays are to be celebrated? i really wonder.
but yesterday, i was really caught surprised, my ah leong brother hahah actually got me a birthday cake!!! sweet right?! even though he doesnt have money but he managed to get me a cake! i nearly cried.. i love my brother.
but before all these, everyone forgot my birthday. except for manson, ashley and rey.
as my life partner, manson should know my birthday and also because my birthday is 2 days away from his... he had to remember!!! then comes ashley, i told her the other day i bet everyone already forgot my birthday.. she made sure that she didnt. Rey's best wishes was the most surprising one.we hardly ever talk! and yet every year he would give me an sms to wish me a happy birthday.

isnt that sweet?

but the people around you all the time, imagine they all forgot your birthday.

hahaha how much do you mean to your friends? (i cant help but ask myself that)

taiwan taiwan taiwan

taipei national museum


taipei 101 building

me, teresa and tracy with the reluctant soldier haha

me and teresa trying to distract the poor soldier

teresa tang's tomb

shilin night market

HA! I actually just came back from taiwan....man do i miss my own country!!!!!! Singapore! i love thee!

anyways, this trip was together with the rest of the gang together with many other unrelated ppl. if you wanna know why, it'll be because this trip is infact organised by ntuc where artistes like Hao Hao and the baobei sisters actually is the tour guide. Little bit of the channel 8 variety "my tourguide is a star" kinnda thing.

Anyways, the whole trip consists of many many places of interest in Taipei. And just the city.The temperature is a killer, everytime the wind blows, i feel its slapping my face so hard that i cant breathe! goodness!

Whatever, thank god its over. When i reach the airport in Taiwan, i was practically sweating and when everyone is thinking its cold, im thanking god it was "cooling" for me. We boarded the tour bus and started our journey.

Our tour guide is xiao cong. Very cute person, short and cuddly just like a teddy bear. She is a lady... right. but she is a man lady.(if you get what i mean) Anyways, the first station we went right after we got out from the airport is Shihlin night market.

We ate alot of junk food there and had lots and lots of fun running around and ating, then after about an hour and half, we proceeded to the next destination Hsi menting.Another shopping area and we just walked around.. nothing much to see at that kind of hour. And after for about an hour or so, we proceeded back to the hotel.

We stayed at cosmos hotel, not as nice as the motel we stayed previously but ok... its a hotel what do you expect right? haha quite cosy, not that bad.

The next day morning, we went to theresa tang's cemetary in a mountain. it was cold but the whole place is beautiful. When you first reach the cemetary, the sensor would immediately click on and her songs would be played throughout the whole trip. When i got down the bus, and walked over... there she is, lying on the ground.... (ok that sounds funny) peaceful and the place is just beautiful. (if she could see it from the heavens, she would have loved it as well) Lots of flowers were placed on the ground around her tomb and there were 2 of her pictures showing her always beautiful and young. Well, we took many pictures around there as a memory. After that we then proceeded to the next stop at Keelung. We then went to another mountain where rain conquers it all. Why do i say that? Because, in a year 365 days, that place called jiu fen actually would be raining for at least 200 days! 200 out of 365!!! can you believe it? People there should be depressed! But, nope, they werent depressed. Taiwanese are people with passion.. always smiling and talking very nicely to others.

We ate some local snacks and walk about in the rain. It was rather fun. Then we proceeded to dinner at this horrible horrible horrible restaurant . Mongolian bbq buffet restaurant. Service and food sucks!!!!! The only edible thing in there was the bbq meat as well as the potato salad. not forgetting the cherry tomatoes haha. Anyway, there was a war between Sporeans and the taiwanese there. ok like the bove i mentioned taiwanese are nice ppl but this restaurant, the witch look-a-like supervisor , my god! you would gladly wanna volunteer to bitchslap her and put her face in the toilet bowl and flush her head. She is that nonsense. And her attitude.... tsk tsk tsk.. sucks to the very core of the planet earth!!! Thus what do sporeans do? argued and COMPLAINED. HAHAHAHAH yep, we complained to the tourguide and made them call the tour company. The sporeans won the war! The manager of the restaurant came to us the very next day, bowed and apologized to each and everyone of us. I felt so bad for him because it wasnt his fault! It should be the ridiculous supervisor. (biatch...)

Then next day, our trip was more of cultural interest. We went to the place where there were many soldiers watching over and they weren't supposed to move. i dont know what its called but i think its a place where war soldiers rest and being respected in that place. Something like a memorial hall. We watched the performance of the soldiers (like the ones standing outside the Istana) changed shifts. It was really nice. And we were not supposed to touch them or we would have to be jailed for that. And their punishment is much more worse than anybody if they were distracted. Saw a couple of handsome soldiers so me, teresa and tracy immediately asked for our photograghs to be taken with them! Then we saw this other guy who was supposed to be protecting the soldiers against the tourist, he was drop dead gorgeous. Haha we got hao to go forward and ask if we could take a picture with him and reluctantly he agreed hahahahaha!!!!!!!!

after that we went to the national museum of Taiwan and saw many many awesome things!! These are actually national treasures when last time china had war and Chiang Jhek Shi actually brought all these treasures to taiwan to hide them here or it would have fallen into the enemy hands. Guess i was the only one that was truly fascinated by so many things inside there. (haha shy)

then we proceeded next stop. Spa.... hahah traditional japanese spa..... but i didnt fully utilise it even though it could be a chance a year because........ my lower body was bleeding!!!!! wrong timing!!! argh!!!! but i get to soak my feet in there haha (to make myself feel better) so i can still tell friends in spore that i have been to the spa. haha next stop was a street filled with smelly beancurd... god i could almost get killed for that. the smell was ecstacy!!!! i nearly pulled my nose off. And hao forced me to eat it. In return, he got me a soft toy haha a cow... with wings! named moo moo. i named it. Ha ha ! then we went too Taipei 101. the tallest building. The things inside are meant for frich people to buy.... not us. LV cost 300 more than usual compared to spore! can you believe it!!!!!! no wonder all the japanese come to spore to get the stuffs....

sigh... so little days so many places... but i got a couple of new clothes for manson and myself also a coupple of gifts for friends.... cool i love taiwan... i would go again haha.

but i pray next trip, JAPAN!!!!! HERE I COME!!!!!!!